I never wanted to be an "overweight" mom. I wanted to be able to have fun with the kids run around at the park...going on hiking trips...feel comfortable in the swimming pool with the kids. WOW never thought I would be sitting here writing this and say I am 430lbs...YES OFFICAL WEIGHT!!
Ok so Day One...ADMIT that I need to get this weight off. I just really think about the last dr's appt I had. The Dr told me I needed to get the weight off I may not be here in 5-10 yrs or not have the life I expect to live. My blood work was good..except for Thyroid and Iron levels....We knew the hypothyroidism, but can honestly say HATE the feeling on the meds feel the same way off meds too. I was told to take an Aspirin aday, but no other meds. Dr made comment..."Jenn, you are the healthest Obese person I know, now we just need to get the weight off"
HEALTHY OBESE....if that is an oxymoron if ever heard one...HAHA Those 2 words should never be together. Don't sugar-coat that I need to lose the weight I know that!! I have known it for 12 yrs now.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Overweight, Unemployed,Car Accident & a HUGE coldsore
OVERWEIGHT WOW....I wrote that down. That is like a load off my shoulders...NOT I have been Morbidly Obese since the birth of my daughter 11yrs ago. Now it has gotten worse. Whose fault? I could blame my mom for not giving me enough love growing up, I could blame my father for never being there for me. I could blame my 2nd stepfather for all the emotional, mental and "the spankings" I received for years. I could blame my boyfriends for not loving enough. I COULD Blame someone else but that is not who I need to blame. I blame MYSELF. I allowed so much to happen to me and i would blame someone or thing else for what I did to myself. I know I need to work on things and get over things....therapy!....I have kids who are doing the same thing as I am now....NOT going to allow that. I need to work on myself, I need to feel I am worth life. I AM WORTH SOMETHING! So need to work on me to be a better me.....:)
UNEMPLOYED One thing I thought I would never have to deal with in my life unemployment. If it was me and only me I would be OK, but no I have 2 kids to support too. I am trying all I can do but I think I need more help. I thought I was all OK and had things planned. It won't be hard to find another job....yeah right I can't find anything here in my little town. Everyone goes well you may have to move well I will move but I don't have the money really to move. I love where I am, the kids are well established here. I know that shouldn't matter, the kids will adapt anywhere, I might not...hahahahaha....I really like this area I live in but it is a tourist community and that is what is wrong. We really don't have some type of industry or company to sustain people a good pay!! We so need it. It looks like I may go to a place where I am not looking at going. Not any better then here, but who knows something can come of this waiting. Keeping everything crossed
Car Accident & HUGE coldsore I have to laugh at this and this is the comic relief here.....LOL I have been under so much stress it creeped up literally overnight. I not only was sick for about 8 days...flat on back with headache, flu like symptoms. I think everything just hit at once! Got over that....by the way don't think being sick for 8 days is the best way to lose weight either...I did lose but not the best. So then here come the car accident.....OH BOY....talk about the stress added on now. This was only the second accident I have been in in 24yrs of driving....I hit the stupid kid because he cut out in front of me. He said didn't see me at all. He was crossing the lanes of traffic and didn't see the car pulling into the LOAF N' JUG and me in the other lane.....YIKES.....he did admit to it, his insurance will cover it all....This isn't what I wanted to happen, no one does. It's only a car but still my only car, my only way to get the kids places....and because someone was in such a hurry thought he could beat the traffic or just Jack rabbited out because he truly wasn't looking...I don't know. now I have to wait for the police to get the report done in order to file claim....What a joke!! So getting back to what I was saying....Stress of not working and trying to provide for my kids(which is barely now), Trying to get my Application and Video's for Biggest Loser #12 in on time (Day of Accident) and then the HUGE COLDSORE.....I have to laugh at what life is giving me and just chuckle at everything.
I truly believe nothing funnier can come to me right now....If something funnier does come....I plan on laughing my butt off with wide open arms....My life is a comedy right now....believe me!!! Come On World Bring It On!!!
Smile!! And make them wonder what you are up too
UNEMPLOYED One thing I thought I would never have to deal with in my life unemployment. If it was me and only me I would be OK, but no I have 2 kids to support too. I am trying all I can do but I think I need more help. I thought I was all OK and had things planned. It won't be hard to find another job....yeah right I can't find anything here in my little town. Everyone goes well you may have to move well I will move but I don't have the money really to move. I love where I am, the kids are well established here. I know that shouldn't matter, the kids will adapt anywhere, I might not...hahahahaha....I really like this area I live in but it is a tourist community and that is what is wrong. We really don't have some type of industry or company to sustain people a good pay!! We so need it. It looks like I may go to a place where I am not looking at going. Not any better then here, but who knows something can come of this waiting. Keeping everything crossed
Car Accident & HUGE coldsore I have to laugh at this and this is the comic relief here.....LOL I have been under so much stress it creeped up literally overnight. I not only was sick for about 8 days...flat on back with headache, flu like symptoms. I think everything just hit at once! Got over that....by the way don't think being sick for 8 days is the best way to lose weight either...I did lose but not the best. So then here come the car accident.....OH BOY....talk about the stress added on now. This was only the second accident I have been in in 24yrs of driving....I hit the stupid kid because he cut out in front of me. He said didn't see me at all. He was crossing the lanes of traffic and didn't see the car pulling into the LOAF N' JUG and me in the other lane.....YIKES.....he did admit to it, his insurance will cover it all....This isn't what I wanted to happen, no one does. It's only a car but still my only car, my only way to get the kids places....and because someone was in such a hurry thought he could beat the traffic or just Jack rabbited out because he truly wasn't looking...I don't know. now I have to wait for the police to get the report done in order to file claim....What a joke!! So getting back to what I was saying....Stress of not working and trying to provide for my kids(which is barely now), Trying to get my Application and Video's for Biggest Loser #12 in on time (Day of Accident) and then the HUGE COLDSORE.....I have to laugh at what life is giving me and just chuckle at everything.
I truly believe nothing funnier can come to me right now....If something funnier does come....I plan on laughing my butt off with wide open arms....My life is a comedy right now....believe me!!! Come On World Bring It On!!!
Smile!! And make them wonder what you are up too
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